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  • Writer's pictureJillian Epperly

Generation X.. It's anybody's guess how you will end up..

Generation X.. It's anybody's guess how you will end up..


I found a way not to self medicate.. And it takes facing your demons.. And releasing them and feeding them..


I'm not here selling you on memoirs.. Trying to titillate you with gory details.

Everyone has a chapter they don't want exposed to the world.. Or parts of the story that are not necessary to traumatize other people.. Or to even to defame someone else. If your intention is to bring somebody else down.. Then that's a destroyer..


The intention is to understand how people get programmed and how demons get developed and then at some point when you're ready to release them.. But during that release how do you channel that energy so it doesn't become destructive to you your children and the people around you.. As you can see how I channel the energy of release.. How do you release trauma without destroying life..


Because Trauma doesn't mean someone abusing you purposely because of their own issues.. It could also mean bad relationships.. Unmet expectations.. Bullies in the schoolyard.. It could mean your own self harm.. It could mean somebody passed away that you loved so much.. It could be your parents divorce.. War.. It could be war..


Programming people.. Not only does it start out in the womb/wound But it is something daily..


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Generation x.. It's anybody's guess how will end up..

I found a way NOT to self medicate..

And it takes facing your demons.. And releasing them and feeding them..

I don't ever want to be healed EVER!!

.. I want to remember.. I want to make the better choices from remembering.. I don't ever want to forget because of healing and painting over the trauma with some other distraction or herb extract or new religion.. Or toxic positivity.. Or toxic negativity..

Because you can be extreme on both ends look at your facebook.. Look at those trying to compensate for their trauma.. They are either so bitter.. Or they're so toxically positive oozing love and happiness.. Because that's the only way they can cope with the trauma.. They haven't learned how to release.. Only paint over with emotions. That only lasts so long.

What are you developing in yourself? What are you giving as a gift to your kids? That isn't gonna be self destruct at some point when they can't handle change..

Or are you developing another new serial killer.. Because of the demons from what you passed down to them during your time of release...

And we know the pharmaceutical's market developed demons in offspring. We know use of anti depressants f****** the offspring..

There are entire generations of people who have been f***** u* by the pharmaceuticals industry.. Even the cannabis industry..

I'm not here selling you on memoirs.. Trying to tittilate you with gory details.

Everyone has a chapter they don't want exposed to the world.. Or parts of the story that are not necessary to traumatize other people.. Or to even to defame someone else. If your intention is to bring somebody else down.. Then that's a destroyer..

The intention is to understand how people get programmed and how demons get developed and then at some point when you're ready to release them..

Will you do so in a way that is productive for you and not destructive

But during that release how do you channel that energy so it doesn't become destructive to you your children and the people around you.

. As you can see how I channel the energy of release.. Look at my facebook lives and reels..

I use music.. I use my own innovation and my own perspective on the world.. What I want to see change.. But it starts with me.. It's no one's fault but my own why I am where I am at..

And I don't give 100% credibility to everyone around me because I also took a lot of the time to take care of myself..

I appreciate the support and the energy around me but I ultimately had to do the work.. I am one hundred percent responsible for my own body my own mind and my own spare.. No one else is..

How do you release trauma without destroying life..

Because trauma doesn't mean mom or dad abusing you purposely because of their own issues.. It could also mean bad sex relationships.. Unmet expectations.. Bullies in the schoolyard.. It could mean your own self harm.. It could mean somebody passed away that you loved so much.. It could be your parents divorce..

War.. It could be war..

Programming people.. Not only does it start out in the womb/wound but it is something daily..

Babies Toddlers Teenagers Young adult Middle aged

Internal kinetic energy External kinetic energy

All disease.. All cancers.. Tell you how much kinetic energy was used at different parts of the body and how trauma you underwent..

Your body will release the secrets.

Pay attention to all the different lumps and bumps. And diagnosable conditions. Which is why medical records should be secret because people hold secrets of abuse in different parts of their body.. Not everybody is ready to face the demons..

Every single focused kinetic energy on all parts of the body mind and spirit will develop a foundational programming..

A background of trauma makes it easier too mold and Program people..

Generation x Mom you nailed it.. My mother nailed it.. I didn't become a serial killer.. I saved myself.. I put out an innovation.. And I don't hate you.. I don't hate anyone.. I don't even hate the government..

You prepared me for the future.. Not for the current society but for the new world..

Was that your intention.. I have no idea..

But what did you instill/install in me..

1. Culture Museums bookstores tasteful concerts. 2. Books and academics 3. Isolation and discipline Knowing I can survive being alone studying or doing other things. 4. Suffering from not getting what I wanted all the time 5. A lot of negative reinforcement coupled with some positive reinforcement. 6. Developing strategies around isolation and punishment. Because if I can develop a strategy to get a little bit of freedom and fresh air.. Not meaning that anything was crazy.. But then I developed strategies to survive.. And take in new information... Innovate. The Burglar alarm.. Even my window.. Learning how to steal food we weren't supposed to have..

All of it was strategy conditioning to survive in a f***** u* world with people who will put road blocks ahead of you purposely.. Jealousy.. Bullies in our society.. Predators..

Do you know my Mother never called me stupid.. She never ever insulted me.. She just made me do things over and over again until it was to her satisfaction..

She put in the f****** time.. She read to us..

You never psychologically abuse people by insulting them and calling them stupid even your own children as a way to make them develop.. Or toughen them up as I see some parents think that's the way to do things..

That's the wrong f****** way.. Again if you're not trained in behavior modification don't even f****** attempt it..

Because many parents think they know everything and they try to do this and they f****** their kid..

And let me tell you when you attempt things you have no idea how to control they will end up self destructing.. Because you have no idea if they even know how to save themselves.. You're gambling on something you have no idea how to control..

It's like magic getting out of control.. What are you developing.. Look at the headlines.. Look at what parents are developing in society. Look at the criminal justice system.. Disney told us..

Because if you haven't been taught to save yourself you will never teach your kid how to do it so you can't do any kind of behavior modification and think it's not going to run away from you.. Because it will.. There are runaways in the news all the time.. Because parents thought they knew better.. When they had no f****** clue.

in my opinion.. To all parents and grandparents out there who have some kind of influence..

Give them the productive EDUCATIONAL experiences.. Something for them to channel their energy. Studying art.. I wouldn't necessarily say sports.. can they handle the change in environment and if they have very little fat and mostly muscle they could die from a heart attack.. Understand the world you live in, parents pleasw don't live in a f****** bubble.. pretending everything is the same twenty years ago.. The world is not the same..

Do your kids have what it takes to handle climate change.. Because we're not in kansas anymore the climate is shifting and it's aggressive..

Count how many times you've been sick mom dad grandma and what you used in reaction.. That will weaken you.. And it will weaken your children..

Can they handle change and symptoms and are you teaching them how to release so they can deal with hardship.. Because you know it's going to get hard for them.. Do they have what it takes. Do you have what it takes..

Beating your kids into submission just develops rage and violence.. And of course what they see on the internet.. That's also a programming..

Parents.. You will either make or break your kids at a young age.. And if you're all about violence parents.. Bullies in the school yard.. That's who your girls and boys will end up being..

And when your kid f**** up.. Let them learn the hard way.. Don't bail them out of situations that they've got themselves into.. You saw what happened in the murdaugh case...

But again that's your own choice you will make or break your child's future.. At least when you're absent the child will have to figure out on their own and see what they are made of.. Because maybe they don't have any role models in the world.. And so they will look for the ones that they identified with the most..

It's okay to also be an absent parent.

. Because you don't want to f****** your kid if you know you can't do it.. Because the parents that do step up they don't always do the best job.. Because what are they in stilling in that child..

And so not being there could also be a blessing.. But many kids wont understand that.. I didn't for a while when I left home.. Because my mom even had to stop talking to me for a certain period of time.. I honor that boundary..

Being there for your kid and not being their for your kid could be also a blessing and a curse..

But at least if they're on their own they will make the choices.. And learn from them.. When you're always there for your kid they don't learn except for your way and it isn't the only way and it isn't always the most balanced..

I get tired of hearing high-and-mighty parents. Oh I was the one that stepped up to the kid.. Well good for you f****** raise em right..

And if they still turned out questionable.. Well raising a kid in the society isn't really a huge feat..

Raising a balanced kid in this society who doesn't commit crimes or fall victim to predatory tendencies.. Who knows how to save themselves.. That's a f****** awesome..

Peace..

It ain't hard having a kid.. It's f****** difficult to raise a balance kid..

If you have daddy issues and mommy issues.. Maybe it's time to look inward and figure out where you need to make different choices.. It ain't daddy's fault or mommy's fault why they were or were not there

What the h*** are you going to do for yourself.. Without blaming or putting all your eggs in their basket..

They gave you life.. Now you go and develop yourself.. You have access to resources.. You can learn from your mistakes.. But give yourself the opportunity.. If not you will be taking everything from everybody.. Using your body or people will take pity on you.. And you won't use your brain.. And then see you later..

That's why we're in a great reset..



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