The ending is the beginning (gen x, your turn)
There is a power in "canceling" yourself off the hamster wheel.
You don't want to end your career with the world canceling you because of your entrenched belief system. You don't want your immune system to cancel you. But you do want to cancel the parts of you that could destroy you and other people. That's the power of canceling yourself off the hamster wheel. Knowing when to quit when you're ahead.
And nobody can make that decision for you unless you're breaking the law and they have the receipts
Just so you know I canceled the distribution of my book because it's not appropriate to anything in real time however if it's appropriate I might recirculate it in the future but probably not..
If anything will write a new book way in the future after looking back and marinating on everything I did the last 50 years. But the system will also have it available through some of these other online places so if you do see my book pop up after a month in other places and it's accessible I'm not making money off it and I don't really care.
That part of my life is pretty much over with. So it's more for just historical reference purposes versus an actual reality of my current situation today because it has changed astronomically.
And that book was more for me and for the world to see where I was coming from but by the time the installation of the future processes and it is final (2030), what I wrote a couple years ago would be completely irrelevant and not appropriate in the scheme of things with the information I provided in the beginning of the book.
as far as my adopted parents , whatever I wrote was speculation because I don't know anything really about them.
And so the book was more of me exploring that and trying to make very loose connections between things that may or may not have been so and so it was my way to express whatever I needed to.
And do it publicly because that's what I was trained to do was to be a culture in a petri dish and be observed so publicly that whatever reaction I had would be extremely public as well.
You can't escape the training. Your parents do make you whether you believe it or not.
Not all the time do you have choices independent of what you were trained in
And I was dancing around subject matters because I didn't want to make claims about what I thought was going on because even if it is true there is no proof and so why reinvent the wheel and make claims around conspiracy stuff. And also I can be more complete with my information in another book in the future to bring it all together. And so I'm completely fine with the choices I've made.
Those of you who bought the books, thank you so much for the revenue and the support and I hope that you find some kind of value in what I'm doing right now and what I've offered and what I invested based upon your investment. When you bought my last books I took the revenue and reinvested in this book and then you got to watch the whole situation.
My husband was never on the hook financially for any of these books. The first time I invested in the book was after I sold my car and then other people donated what they could based upon my interaction with them at the time and what I gave them as support and phone calls and being there for them everyday.
As far as I'm concerned and people could dispute this, I'm pretty much square with everybody because I invested so much time in them and they may have converted that to money and invested into me and then now they have the knowledge and the experience and it was pretty much a light investment relative to their situation.
And that is priceless. Early on, all of us were greedy into thinking we would make money from this and it bit us in the ass, myself included.
I received the most heat because I had to answer to the government and all of my haters and I even took this publicly so then I put myself even more hot water but that was necessary. It was brutal but it was necessary.
I've bought people laptops that disengaged from this three or four years ago so I have no idea what people are doing after I bought them computers thinking they would be moderators
but I have no grudges against them because they were there for me at the time and they were a source of support that I truly appreciated
and I compensated them for that. They also had to take the hits from all of you who hated what I was doing.
I even bought Lillian her own touch screen large laptop so she can moderate my website when I had my own website with a forum. I even paid her a hundred bucks a month because she was updating the website maintaining the traffic. I even traveled to Wisconsin to teach her how to use the system. I bought myself a desk that I since donated to a company.
We all were investing in each other and thought we could make a lot of money from this but there's no money in making somebody feel pain and suffering from facing their demons and you can't take away people's pain and suffering because you could kill them.
And so all of us learned a hard lesson there is no money to be made in this type of situation.
But you can glean knowledge from the experience and make your world a better place.
When I went to Portugal it was my audience who paid for the plane tickets and then I paid for the food and the lodging. And I was in an Airbnb sharing it with two other people.
And so I think I pretty much made a profit from saving myself and I probably broke even or maybe took a little loss financially
but I couldn't tell you because I invested in the people that were supporting me through computers and other things so I probably broke even and made an immunological and intellectual profit Which is far better than US dollar profit.
You can't eat money and if you don't know what to do with food, there's no point in buying food if you don't know what to do with it and you can't process it to save your own life.
And so the knowledge that I received from this whole experience was converted into the ability to process food to work to my benefit and that is priceless..
how many people eat but they have no idea if the food they're eating is working to their benefit?
When I can convert the knowledge I received into how to process food correctly to save my life, that is priceless and there is no loss..
I don't need a fancy car or a big house to show for what I've done. I have my life. I have my relative peace and equilibrium.
And so that is an end of an era and it needs its proper closure. Like everything there is beginning and there's also an ending
Dear Jillian Epperly,
This email is to confirm the cancellation of your book with BalboaPress. The book entitled “Another Arm of the Hydra: The Undefined Life” with ISBNs 9798765236895, 9798765236901, and 9798765236918 has been disabled in the BalboaPress database and will no longer be available through the BalboaPress online store and the hotline within 24 hours. A cancellation request has also been forwarded to our online distributors such as Ingram, Amazon, Baker & Taylor and Bowker Books-in-Print and it does take 2-3 weeks for them to change their status online to “PUBLICATION CANCELLED”. When a title is listed as cancelled, production knows not to produce any more copies of the book for distribution.
Due to our relationship with various printers and book distributors physical copies of your book may currently exist within the book vending channels. It is possible that your book will still be listed as active with other online retailers until these copies have sold out. Also, please note that as part of Amazon and Barnes & Noble’s sales programs, titles that are considered “out of print” are kept in the system as such to allow customers the ability to track hard-to-find books. Hard-to-find and out-of-print books present a great source of revenue for these businesses, which is why they continue listing books that are no longer available through their distributor.
Let me know if you need anything else.
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